Not gonna do it . . . nope, not at all

I went for my pre-op yesterday and it was very similar to going to a car lot to look and being forced into buying a car. I asked the doctor why he was so insistent on performing the Laparoscopy instead of just doing the Hysteroscopy. He said, just for good measure...really? You want to do something that is not needed and is going to cause me pain for a week or so and cost me at least $1500??? REALLY???

After I met with him, I was moved to the next room to meet with the nurse to go over all the junk I needed to do to be ready for the surgery. THEN, they sent in the 2 finance girls. They started spouting off all my insurance benefits...85/15. My 15% was going to be about $1500 and that is without the Anethstesiologist fees.

LONG story short, I made my way back home while talking with a friend about it, then on to my husband. I came to the decision to cancel the surgery.

I am actually very relieved. I just don't want to jump through hoops anymore. I want to be with my husband, have fun and just see what happens. I know that God is with me and I still feel like we will have a biological child. Minus being considered “medically old” we are both in good shape and health and all our numbers are good. There is no real reason why we can’t get prego on our own. Here's to LOVE!

I just want to say this day sucks! I have not even met with my doc and they already have me scheduled for surgery on Friday and some chick from the hospital called and told me that I will need to pay over $1000 on Friday! I may cancel the whole thing. uugghhhhhhhhh

Wednesday Appointment

Another whirlwind has begun. My doctor called me back and I am scheduled for pre-op on Wednesday and surgery on Friday. I will be having an laparoscopy and/or hysteroscopy. I have only had surgery once, in 2007 when I had my ACL replaced. I thru-up for 10 hours from the anesthesia :-( Lets hope that is not the case this time. I don't know how long I will have to wait after the procedure to have another IUI. Hope it's not too long.

No News is Not Good News :-(

Well, we are officially not pregnant as of this morning. It is a let down, but I know many others are facing far greater disappointments. I have faith that God will take care of us and our future children. I will call my doctor this morning and see what the next step is.

He told me on my last sonogram that I had a small something or other in my uterus and that if we did not get pregnant this round, we would remove that. I will let you know what we are going to do. Hopefully we will be able to get another IUI in this cycle.

Michele, I am praying for you, your husband and your sweet babies.

ok, ok . . . I'll do it

I stopped drinking water about noon. I have a Clear Blue Easy digital HPT waiting for me at home. I will be home by 4:30 (cst). Please send up the prayers!

Also, thank you to all for commenting. It makes me feel connected to something. Of course, I have spent my day reading all your blogs. Bless you all for sharing so much of your lives with this cyber stranger.

I will let you know...

All right, it just appears that I am a big chicken. My friend that went through IUI just got on me for not testing this morning. I googled it and apparently It would be positive if I am at this time. I have never been so close and I just don’t’ want it to end :-(

The 2 week wait is over...and?

Well, my IUI was 2 weeks ago today. Did I test this morning??? No. My period is not due until Monday. On the HPT box it says 4 days prior to your period is only 50% accurate. Well, I don’t want to go through the weekend with a negative. I am going to try and wait for Monday.

I have had some more symptoms…more metallic taste, leg cramps early in the morning, one crying session yesterday morning and something that I never have with my period, sore nipples. I am just concerned that my brain knows all the symptoms and may be tricking me. I hate to look the fool thinking that I am sooo pregnant and then come to find out it was all in my head. Such an awkward place to be.

My Husband is so excited but covering it well. He leaves for work at 5am, so I am still in bed. He texted me about 6:30am and asked, “are we going to attempt home schooling”? My response was “Maybe, if we have babies”. He replied with “Sorry…just fishing”. How cute is that. I told him that I was probably not going to test till Monday, but he new I might do it anyway…what a great guy!

So, here I am…to test or not to test. Anyone??

I also have another thought drifting through my head…if I AM pregnant, how will I tell my husband? I have a few ideas. If anyone out there has some good ones, let me know!